The Ah Ha moment !

Mind and spirit trapped in contradiction, unlaced in rivalry, addicted to conflict and compelled by the " what if " given by life, like a puzzle that doesn't end I realize this handicap might be the very first step to a cure it Still remains the fact that its uncontrollable, making it harder to vanquish.

Yet again writing this, the complete ignorance of what it’s about puts me in a state of wonder, I am devoted to look for the " ah Ha" moment of these lines but it lacks the sense it should make in my mind, the complete coherence one should look for in every step of their lives. These random lines are yet necessary, because they release me from the vault of my own mind, I escape with each sentence and can't help but wonder what the other is going to be. I smile after each one of them and am amused by the complete meaningless use of words, it’s like throwing them in the air and hoping they would make sense for themselves while falling freely, It should of been part of the " Maslow Pyramid of Basic Needs" that men should look for a place where they make much sense than the actual reality, maybe there, finally they would eventually be satisfied, even if such place exist only in ones dream, in deep endless corners of a twisted mind, a place where whatever spark of thought is relevant and pure surreal genius, and so what if so only applies to the almighty creator of this wonderland, he would feel the pride he purposely reflected on himself from his own work. I am looking for such a place, where the lines I'm currently writing would mean anything to someone, anyone! Even the least, maybe it exists in a far undiscovered corner of my own subconscious, my own place, one I linger to create and become the refugee, or maybe I’ll find it in the unreal world shown in dreams, maybe I'm just becoming a serious lunatic, who knows? I wouldn't know now would I? If I knew I would of never wasted time writing this, and you, if you knew about such a thing would you have read this? In the other discovered corner of my brain I'm thinking maybe I should break head and keep pouring these nonsensical thoughts hopefully the Ha-ah moment I so long for will show up in a surprising, pleasing hopefully brilliant manner.

TJ.